..i am..

I stole this from my Cerissa, who stole it from her SIL..lots of stealing happening!! I guess you just fill it out with your answers, and here mine are:

Outside my window: is Magic Mountain. I love hearing people scream on roller coasters. It makes me smile :)

I am listening to: my tv (TMZ!), air conditioner-yes running at 11pm..

I am thinking: that I need to get to bed because I am not feeling super great.

I am thankful: that my little dog is adjusting to a one-eyed life :)

From the kitchen: ummm..nothing. I might have myself some strawberry pizza in a minute before bed-tomorrow running starts! haha

I am wearing: my new fun little slipper shoes from Target (love that store). They keep my feet away from mice (see below) and jeans, tshirt, the works.

I am hoping: to move in December

I am creating: a mess of my life right now.

I am praying: for the ability to hold on a little longer. My strength is gone.

Around the house: umm..currently, mouse traps. Yep, you heard me...we have ourselves a mouse-but the bastard figured out how to eat all the peanut butter off the trap without it snapping. Jerk. Gotta go talk to the maintenance people now.

I am reading: I have been trying to read My Sister's Keeper..I am a bad reader.

I am watching: A lot of new shows this fall. It's insane- Modern Family, Glee, Flash Forward, The Forgotten. AND then all my old faves Grey's Anatmony, Dancing with the Stars, The Hills..gosh, I am glued to the tv. Ohh and Ellen. I have started DVRing her everyday..love the woman.

One of my favorite things: Snowflake mochas from Cutter's Point on a cold day sitting by the fire in the store with a good friend. NOTHING beats that.

A few plans for the rest of the week: I think coffee with a friend, beginning to train for a marathon/get in shape, buy new running shoes and clothes, APU's homecoming..yep, that's about all.

A picture that I am sharing: This is my little pirate Molly. Poor little girl but she looks pretty tough with her stitches!

..enucleation..

Geez..where do I begin?? It’s been a long 11 days in our household. On September 11th I came home and Molly refused to open her right eye. She started shaking and throwing her head back. I remembered hearing that dogs often shake when they are in pain, so I instantly got concerned. Normally I can cuddle with her and she stops shaking-this was not the case. Went to the vet and they checked her eye. They discovered that she had a cataract and the beginnings of glaucoma. We started some drops. Her eye just seemed to not be getting better. She would sit and cry if she bumped it. Yes, cry. Like a small child. Went back to the vet and her eye pressure was so high. They sent me to the eye specialist whom I was to see next week.

They were the nicest at this place and explained everything to us in great detail. Before they examined Molly, they told us 3 options for dogs with glaucoma-removal, prosthetic eye, and injection to freeze all liquids and make her permanently blind. When they examined her, it was determined that she was already blind in her right eye. No clue how long now-I assume since the 11th or 12th (mothers intuition-haha) When dogs get glaucoma, their eyes go very quick. Sometimes within 30 minutes! I have been beating myself up for the last while because I have been thinking that I could have done something, but there was nothing I could do. I need to accept that.

We talked with the specialist for a while and found out that our only option was removing the eye completely. She wasn’t even a candidate for the other procedures. We scheduled the removal this morning. I haven’t seen her yet, she has to stay overnight but they told me she is doing well. I wish she was here sleeping in her own bed but tomorrow she will be all day! I plan to spoil her completely. Poor little gal. I know she will adjust and she has been for the last week. We didn’t even know she was blind in that eye so she has been getting around good. I know her depth perception will be a bit off for a while.

Dogs become like your children and since I won’t be having any for awhile, this is out baby!
Okay, enough about my dog..I could easily be some crazy old dog lady someday.

..quick list..

-I had a job interview at a frozen yogurt shop. FroYo is quite possibly my favorite thing in the world. It warms my soul. The interview went good, I was offered the job but the guy was kind of a jerk. Would rather not have him as my boss. No thank you.

-My cousin Lisa was recently diagnosed with Type 2 breast cancer. She had a double mastectomy this morning. She is 32 and has a 4 and 5 year old. She has months of chemo ahead of her. Please keep her in your prayers. It is breaking my heart to not be with her at this time, she is like the sister I never had. Hoping to head up there in October to spend time with her and take her kiddos to the zoo :)

-Jesse and I are looking into a move to WA in December.

-I have been looking for a job but in WA, I think I am getting ahead of myself. But who wants to hire someone for 2 months?!

-Molly would need a raincoat if we moved to Olympia..the smell of wet dog grosses me out..the only reason she would wear a jacket.

-I have come to realize that I like to workout but I like to eat more. That is why I never lose weight. I enjoy food too much.

-We bought a Wii 2 weeks ago. We like it.

-My little cousin (okay she is not little anymore) plays volleyball for Seattle University and is playing at Pepperdine on Saturday-I CAN'T wait to see her play! She kicks butt.

-It's still too hot here to even think about putting our fall decorations. 90+ does not scream fall.

-Speaking of that, I want to buy sweaters and long sleeve shirts but I have no idea when I will wear them. There are some cute things out there but buying them seems stupid to me right now.

-I also could use some prayers for my..mental health..yea, mental health. I am really struggling with life in general. I need prayer. I am not ashamed to ask for it or to say I need help. That's the first step.

-Lastly, I just paid of my Blazer :) Betty is all mine!!!!